Many have experienced grief with the loss of someone close to them, but what if that someone was yourself?

Transgender people have lived and existed in many forms for many centuries. Today, there are many possible (physical, emotional, and mental) changes made by Trans people to feel affirmed in their own body. To “come out” or “transition” has required some Trans people to abandon a self they do not recognize. This act of abandonment and process of grieving one’s self is common for many Queer and Trans people who were not raised in affirming environments.

The artist believes it is up to each Queer and Trans person how they may grieve or celebrate their life before “coming out.” This exhibition is how the artist has chosen to honor a life she no longer lives. In this experience, there are 4 letters written by the artist, Sylvia, addressed to her deadname, Seth. Each letter explores the complicated language and emotions tethered to grief (Anger, Depression, Guilt, Acceptance). Amongst the letters are pieces of furniture and artifacts retrieved from the artist’s childhood home she abandoned in order to stay alive. While wondering who she is today, her work mourns the life she didn’t keep.